New Years Revolution

Dear Brothers and Sisters,

For years and years the common thing to do before the new year has been to "make a new years resolution." Whether it is too get rid of that butt by working out every day, to not date for a year, or even to quit soda, new year resolutions are a common tradition in our society. All in all there is absolutely nothing wrong with making a new years resolution, in fact it can be a fantastic thing. The thing that isn't great is the fact that we believe we can achieve these tasks on our own without help from God himself; oh silly us.

I'm here to break the tradition of attaining a new years resolution, and instead creating a New Years Revolution.

The word revolution means to forcible overthrow of a government or social order for a new system. Lets create a revolution this year, to overthrow the social order of how the "right way" to live is. Let us be the freaks and the ones they call absurd, let us be the light in the darkness, let us shake this nation.

So this year I have decided to not create a new years resolution, but to begin a new years revolution. I am enlisting myself to fight and be a light for the King of Kings. To show hope to the hopeless. To be a burning fire for the unlit. If you feel the urge to revolt against the evil "normal" way of living and start living in a Christ like manner more hardcore than ever, than join me, and let us change this world.

God Bless

Will You Die A Legacy, Or A Lie?

Dear Brothers and Sisters,

Something I've noticed throughout my walk with Christ is that He doesn't like to be, well, accomadating with our timeline, or the way we would prefer Him to intervine. He likes to get our attention during the hectic, painful, stressful, and recently, around Christmas (which incorporates all of the above for most.) Today I was reminded of this tendancy of His.

As most of you know I work at the Disney Store inside Concord Mills, fantastic job (minus the lack of hours I have recieved...) however, today I was on the register and the pleasure of ringing up an elderly gentlemen who was purchasing a princess dress up set for her daughter for Christmas. He seemed to be in his late 50's, possibly early 60's, and He was the happiest older man I've seen in a while. We had a lively discussion about the Little Mermaid, and the Marvel universe. As I was handing him his bag He looks at me and asked a question that not only shocked me, it left me lost for words. He asked me non-chalantly "Son, when you pass on from this world, will you leave a legacy? or will you leave a lie?"

I thought I was about to drop the bag when I heard this man ask me this question, in my head I was scrambling to find a theological, profound, and amazing Christian answer, instead the words that left my mouth sounded more like "Uhhh I'm gonna go to heaven." His response was "That wasn't what I was asking son, think about it, have a great one!"

This moment totally shook my day, for the rest of the afternoon my mind was going crazy with thoughts and theorys on what my life would really mean if I were to die. Would I leave a legacy? A man known to share the truth of God, a man that everyone thought "Man, did that Ron love God." Or will I be a man where at the funeral some people will say "Man, did that Ron love God" and than others would say "Man, did that Ron love attention" and than others would say "Man, did that Ron love to party"... Do I want to die a legacy, or a lie?

After my shift I had a good long bike ride back home to contimplate over this divine question that was given to me today. In my head it wasn't just a question where I was to give him the right answer, I believe it was a question intended for me to hear, intended for me to take and change the way I think, and act, a little angel perhaps. After thinking for a while I realized I shouldn't be thinking at all, I should be praying. I started talking out loud to God, and just asking Him questions, and oddly enough, it seemed like I was actually hearing Him respond to me.

I heard Him telling me He was proud of me for how far I've come, and I heard Him telling me that I would be a fool to stop there. I heard Him telling me to press on everyday to be a better Christian, a better follower for Christ, to stop being impressioned by others thoughts of you, to stop being a people pleaser, and being a Jesus pleaser. And the cliche Christian cliche that went through my head was "what if I were to die tomorrow?" and as cliche as that question is, it hit me hard. People come in a blink, and go in a flash, who am I to think I am guranteed a long life?

Anywho, this conversation with God has left me refreshed and motivated to try harder to be a greater worshiping warrior. I would encourage you to encourage me to stay true not to who I am, but to who I am to God. I am no longer going to live a lie, I am choosing to live a legacy, if you're with me, join me.

God Bless

Every Dream Begins With A Dreamer

Dear Brothers and Sisters,

Heartache is something everyone most likely feels, or suffers with at some point in there life. Whether its the loss of a love one, the separation of young love, or even watching someone you love change into someone you can't recognize; heartache is real and relevant.

For me, the most efficient way to handle heartache, is mourning with God, and listening to music. Although this blog post isn't very long, and isn't very profetic, it is theraputic for me. The song below has helped me cry and get some emotions out as well as encourage me to not let anyone bring me down. enjoy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TlPr0nzCZ58

Sorrow Doesn't Equal Resolve

Dear Brothers and Sisters,

It has been quiet a while since I have written you guys, and for that I am sorry. Its a shame how easy it is to get caught up with life and how doing a devotion or a blog post seems irrelevant to the "now" times. I shall continue to do my best to continue
post on here and often as possible, as it seems to medicate me in a spiritual way.

Lately I have been caught up in grieving over the unchangable, missing the past, and complaining over things that are meant to be, for now that is. My life has been completely focused on the irrelevant, rather than the quickly approaching future. I feel like soilders alike do this, ignoring the future, and living in the past.

Phillipians 3:13 says "Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead"

Easier said than done, I understand, but the fact of the matter is, if you are reminiscing in the nonrelevant past, you need to recognize it, realize why it is wrong, and react to how you are thinking/living. If everyone forgot about the past, and focused on the now, can you imagine how much different living would be? I never know where i'm going with these blog posts, i just write whats on my mind at the moment, but i believe life would be exceddingly more happy, simply, happier.

I myself am learning to give my sorrows to God and lean on him when I am sad. Jesus came, to be intentionally slaughtered for me to have the amazing opportunity to worship Him and one day spend eternity in His presence. I'm sorry, but everytime I imagine spending eternity with the one and only Creator of the Universe, I get goosebumps! I cannot wait my friends! So live in that mindset, live in the realization that God has a plan for you, and that this life will surely end and you will have the amazing blessing and living with Him forever!

This mindset helps me live in a more faith-bound life style, i'm far from perfect, but this sure is helping my chaotic life.

God Bless

Romancing Sinners With Grace

Dear Brothers and Sisters,

The story I'm about to tell you is a story about a love story, a love story of how Grace is romantic, and how she has captivated me with her beauty.
Over two years ago I fell madly in love with a woman, her hair was brunette and long and beautiful, her eyes were bright and her voice was sweet like honey; she moved her body like a rose dancing in the wind, and her heart was as sweet as sugar. We romanced through the summer, dancing to no music, and laughing to no jokes. Our love was unbreakable, or so it seemed, we were the sweetest of couples. For nearly a year we were together, we boasted in each others love, and were the couple that everyone was jealous of, I've never felt more alive.
Until one day, I left her, her beauty was still mesmerizing, and her ways still lovely, but I for some reason found beauty in other living. I left her to herself, her love for me never left, but I didn't care, I wanted to do things alone. I cheated on her, lied to her, and went my own ways. I dated other girls whose beauty was fake, and their love was conditional, I never felt love the way I did with Her.
What I didn't know was that the entire time I was betraying her, breaking promises I made to her before, and being a scum I never was, she continued to love me. Her love for me was so great, she never took another lover, she waited, and waited, and in her heart knew I would come back and one day be together again.
An entire year pasted that we were separated. I had been with many other lovers, I was broken, I became an addict, I smoked, I was a mess, and she was still as beautiful as ever. I came to a point were I was broken, I was alone, and I missed love. I felt shame and never thought She would ever want to be with me again. I cried for days in my bed, missing Her, and wanting Her back.
It came to the point where I was so broken that I had nothing to lose, I called her, and before I knew it she was standing in front of my door. I opened the door and there she was, crying with her gorgeous smile stretching from ear to ear. Her hair was messy, yet elegant, it appeared as if she dropped everything She was doing to come see me. I began to apologize for everything when She embraced me and told me to hush. I could feel her tears dripping down her cheek onto my shoulder and I held her as tight as I could.
She didn't let me go for hours, and She repeated these words over and over again; "I love you sweetie, I always will, no matter what you do." We wept in each others arms for hours, and She showered me with sweet kisses and we discussed how we would spend the rest of our lives together.
Her name is Grace, and she has saved my life, and she will always be my lover.

God Bless

Death Of YOLO

This is truly powerful.

Watch "Death Of Yolo || Spoken Word" on YouTube

Dear Savannah

Dear Savannah,

I've taken a second to fall back in time
The time when I was yours and you were mine
Memories of long walks holding hands
Sharing stories, songs, and bands
In you I discovered new happiness
And we were the epitome of loveliness
This was the place where our souls found rest
Until the day you did what was best

"Break away, my love. We must grow apart.
Please understand the aching of my heart.
I love you, dear, more than you know,
But for now, my feelings I cannot show."

These words they cut like stone
Breaking my heart, leaving me alone
For months I cried, for months I did mourn
I didn't realized that your heart, too, was torn
For nights I didn't sleep, for nights I did weep
Holding back in fear of living in pain
I lost my morals, I went insane
What I thought was right turned into wrong
I lost beat of our own love song

I went down a path of pain and misery
I lost meaning of the word "cheery"
I eased my pain with anything distracting
God was preparing for my redacting
You were brought back to me
I found love again with thee
I knew it was real what I felt long before
You are so beautiful, I could not ignore

I fell back in love with the ways of the before
I didn't feel worthy, I thought you needed more
I realized how selfish and dirty I was
I found out why I didn't feel worthy, because
I was foolish to think I could change my ways
I surrendered my life to Him for the rest of my days

My heart has never been so happy
I dance every day with my heavenly Daddy
My spirit has found its true love
By grace my home has been moved above
But until the day I sit by my King
My earthly body yearns for what your presents brings

So until the day we're together again
I pray you are happy, and feel less pain
Until the day where I am yours
I promise that my hands, are too, only yours
Other than my heavenly King
You are the only other love for me
Where I am, it is for His will
And where you are, it is for His will
But for the time, where you and I collide
And the day where we stand side by side
That will be the day that I long for
For I love you
And always will

With love,
Ronnie